This is a collection of my musings, either inspired by site-specific experiences or by my own life experiences.
I am writing to apologise for unintentionally and intentionally hurting both your feelings by words and action. This family becomes stronger by the support of us all. I will be respectful and mindful of how I am with you all in future. Everyone is welcome to come and be with us and lean on us any time. Lots of love
So this was my way of moving on to a better platform and a better state of mind. Its a balance act for a parent when a child/young adult/mature adult kid comes upset and needs appeasing. The parent has two options: 1) Just absorb all the anxiety projected by the child or
2) Try and resolve issues by engaging in a dialogue with the source that caused the anxiety?
I chose the second option and then spent two weeks in self agonising state. Thought of how intervention could be considered interference and its ripple effects on relationships is quite painful. Started second guessing myself and doubting every interaction. Having recognised the negative impact this was having, I had two option towards resolution. 1) Mentally take sides and allow animosity to fester or 2) Leave ego aside, apologise and promise to be mindful in future. I chose the second option and I also chose to be kind to myself. Its never too late to apologise and make up.
Escape, Gouache, 30th April 2021.